The memory is as sharp as the steel that touched my scalp that day. It was a Friday during my senior year of high school—the date has blurred over the last decade, but the sensory details remain vivid. I was walking to school with Rema. Back then, she was my girlfriend; she was stunning then, though, in the way of wine and grace, she is even more beautiful now.
As we approached the school gates, I reached out to take her hand. To my surprise, she pulled back, her fingers slipping through mine as she quickened her pace. I hurried to catch up, my backpack bouncing against my spine.
"What happened?" I asked, breathless, once I pulled level with her.
She offered a cryptic, playful smile. "Nothing. We’re just going to be late for class."
"We have five minutes, Rema," I countered. "Are you mad because I tried to hold your hand?"
She laughed, a light, melodic sound. "I’m usually the one who initiates the hand-holding, isn't that right? Why would I be mad at you for doing the same?"
We settled into our desks, and the morning passed in a blur of lectures and scribbled notes. By recess, the tension had shifted into something more flirtatious. As we sat together, I leaned in and whispered that I wanted to kiss her. Rema demurred, claiming she wasn't quite comfortable yet. We changed the subject, but a few minutes later, she circled back with a mischievous glint in her eyes.
"You want to kiss me," she said, "but you never asked what I want."
"Alright," I conceded, intrigued. "What do you want?"
"Let’s play a game," she proposed. "If you do exactly what I want, you get your kiss."
I agreed immediately, though I tried to bargain to go first. She wouldn't have it. We settled the dispute with a coin toss. I called tails. The coin spun through the humid air, glinting in the light before slapping onto her palm.
Rema beamed, her excitement palpable. When I asked what my task was, she simply told me to wait until after school. "Just remember," she warned, "you promised to do exactly as I say. "
The final bell rang, signaling the end of the week. As we walked toward our neighborhood, I pressed her for details.
"We're going to that barbershop on the next block," she said firmly.
"The barbershop? Why?"
"No questions," she reminded me, tapping her chin. "Do as I say."
The shop was small, smelling of talcum powder, peppermint, and old leather. The barber sat in a hydraulic chair, buried behind a newspaper. He looked up as the bell chimed, his eyes darting between the teenage boy and the determined girl beside him.
Rema took my bag from me and gestured toward the empty chair. I sat down, the vinyl cool against my jeans. The barber snapped a crisp white cape around my neck, tucking it snugly into my collar until I felt like a floating head.
"How short are we going, son?" the barber asked.
Before I could request a trim, Rema intervened. "He needs a full head shave," she said, her voice steady.
My heart hammered against my ribs. I looked at her through the mirror, my eyes wide with shock. The barber paused, his hand hovering over his tools. "Are you sure about that?" he asked me directly.
I searched Rema’s expression. She didn't look angry; she looked delighted. She gave a small, encouraging nod. I swallowed hard and nodded back.
"Clipper shave or straight razor?" the barber asked.
"Razor," Rema answered for me.
The barber didn't ask a second time. He began by misting my hair with a spray bottle, the cool water soaking through to my scalp. He fetched a traditional straight razor, slid out the used blade, and snapped a fresh, terrifyingly sharp one into place.
He stepped in front of me, gently but firmly tilting my chin down so I was staring at the hair-covered cape. I felt the cold steel make contact with the exact center of my crown.
Skritch.
He took two long, deliberate strokes. Because my hair was so saturated, the first few passes didn't fall; they clumped together on top of my head. The barber then placed his thumb on the newly bared skin, stretching it taut against the grain to ensure a closer shave.
With the next few strokes, the weight began to shift. A heavy, dark mass of hair slid down the cape and landed in my lap. I watched it fall, feeling lighter and more exposed with every second. Rema stood to the side, clutching my bag to her chest, a look of pure fascination on her face.
After a few minutes, the top of my head was a smooth, white island surrounded by a forest of hair on the sides and back. Rema stepped closer, peering at the bald patch in the mirror. She let out a tiny, infectious laugh before retreating to her spot.
The barber moved to the left side. He worked from the temple down to the ear, carefully folding my earlobe down to reach the fine hairs behind it. The shorn locks tickled my cheeks as they tumbled toward the floor. He repeated the process on the right, his movements rhythmic and clinical.
Finally, he tilted my head forward to finish the nape of my neck. I couldn't see the razor anymore, but I could feel it—a cold, sliding sensation that left a trail of tingling skin in its wake. He carved a path up the center of the back of my head, then cleared the rest until the job was done.
I stared at the stranger in the mirror. My head was pale and strangely shaped, totally devoid of the dark hair I’d had an hour ago. The barber began to wipe away the stray hairs with a damp cloth, but Rema stepped forward again.
She ran her palm over my scalp, frowning slightly. "It’s not smooth enough," she told the barber. "Could you go over it again?"
The barber shrugged. "If I do a second pass against the grain, it'll be smooth as glass, but it’ll take a lot longer for the hair to grow back."
"That’s fine," Rema said. "Please, do it again."
The barber reapplied the water and began a second round of shaving, moving from front to back with practiced speed. This time, he caught the excess lather and stubble in his palm after every stroke. Within five minutes, he was finished. When he wiped my head this time, the cloth glided without the slightest hint of friction.
Rema tested the results herself, her fingers tracing the curve of my skull. "Perfect," she whispered.
The final step was the alum block. As the barber rubbed the mineral over my fresh skin to close the pores, it burned like a thousand needles. I winced, gripping the armrests of the chair until the sensation subsided into a dull hum. He dusted me with cooling powder, brushed the stray hairs off my shoulders, and unclipped the cape.
Rema paid the barber and thanked him while I stood there, feeling the draft on my scalp for the first time in my life. As we stepped out into the afternoon sun, the barber called out, "Don't use soap on that for a few days!"
We walked in silence for a moment. "So," I said, my voice echoing slightly in my own ears. "This is what you wanted?"
She laughed, hooking her arm through mine. "I wasn't sure you'd actually go through with it. But you look handsome. I love the new hairstyle."
"Hairstyle?" I joked. "Rema, there isn't a single hair left on my head."
She reached up, her palm warm against my skin. "You're right. I don't think there is."
We reached a quiet, deserted alleyway near my house. She stopped and turned to face me, her eyes softening. "You kept your word," she said. "You did exactly what I asked. Now it’s my turn."
She reached up, placing both hands behind my smooth, shaved head. She pulled me down toward her and finally gave me the kiss I had spent the whole day earning.
That was ten years ago. Rema is no longer my girlfriend; she’s my wife. And, as it turns out, she liked the look so much that I never did grow the hair back. I am still bald to this day.
