I want to share the story of my summer transformation back in 2013. It was May, and the heat was becoming an unbearable, heavy weight on my shoulders. Between the humidity and the persistent dandruff, I felt like I was suffocating under my own hair.
On a Saturday morning, May 18th, I stood on my balcony and spotted the village barbershop just opening its doors. A sudden, electric spark went off in my brain. Yes, today is the day. I didn't give myself time to overthink it; I just grabbed my keys and walked over in my basic tee and shorts.
The scent of fresh agarbatti filled the air as I stepped inside. The barber gestured to the heavy chair, draped a crisp cape around my neck, and asked what kind of trim I wanted.
"Full headshave, bhaiya," I said firmly.
He paused, his eyes wide. "A complete straight razor shave? For a girl like you, sir? Why?"
"The summer," I replied simply. "And leave a small patch—a gheera—right in the middle of the crown."
He nodded, though he looked skeptical. He began by saturating my long hair with a spray bottle until it was dripping. Then, he took out the straight razor, snapped a fresh blade in half with a sharp clack, and loaded it.
The headshaving began at the crown. He made two long, firm strokes toward the back of my head. The sound was a deep, rhythmic shuck-shuck against my skull. Suddenly, his phone rang. He stepped away for a couple of minutes, leaving me in the chair. I reached up, my fingers trembling, and felt the raw, exposed skin. The contrast between the thick hair and the cold, naked scalp was incredible.
When he returned, the blade resumed its work. I watched in the mirror as dark clumps of hair slid down the cape and onto the floor. He moved to the left, carving a path from the crown down to my temple. By now, I was half-bald, a strange and striking image reflecting back at me. Then came the front. He pulled the blade from the crown to my forehead; I watched as my fringe fell across my nose and eyes, landing in my lap.
Finally, only the gheera remained—a 2.5-inch tuft of hair in the center. I looked at myself and felt a wave of awkwardness. It didn't suit the new, bold version of me. "Shave that too," I commanded. With two final, swift strokes, it was gone. I was officially a baldgirl.
"I want it smoother," I told him. "Do a reverse shave."
He sprayed more water, which felt like ice against my sensitized skin. Instead of foam, he massaged hair conditioner onto my scalp to act as a lubricant. He changed the blade again and began shaving from my forehead upward to the crown, going against the grain.
The sound was different now—a high-pitched, metallic rasp-rasp-rasp as the razor met the resistance of the stubborn roots. He kept going until the scraping noise vanished, replaced by the silent glide of steel on skin. My bald head was now a smooth shaved head, polished and gleaming like glass. He refused to do the reverse shave on the nape of my neck to avoid nicks, so he finished by splashing on a cooling aftershave. It burned like fire for three seconds before a deep, minty chill took over.
I paid him, feeling the wind hit my scalp for the first time in my life, and walked home with my head held high.
For weeks, I loved the feeling. I loved the way people looked at me—some with shock, some with admiration. I told everyone it was just for the summer heat. But as August rolled around and a soft, dark fuzz began to cover my scalp, I realized something terrifying.
I wasn't looking forward to my hair growing back. I started staying up late, staring at the straight razor I’d bought for myself, waiting for the house to be silent. I realized that the "heat" had just been an excuse. I didn't shave my head to survive the summer; I did it because I realized that the girl with the long hair was a character I didn't want to play anymore. I don't think I'll ever let it grow past a stubble again.
